I grew up in a very legalistic, very condemning church, that taught that God was waiting for you to sin so that he could punish you. We were taught that even if we were doing everything right, we’d get to heaven, and find out that we didn’t ask God to forgive us for some sin [even telling a lie when you were a kid], and we would not be able to enter into the kingdom. It has taken all these years to get over that. Even this week, as I struggled to make a decision on a direction to take, I was suddenly almost crippled with fear at making the wrong choice, even though both directions would show faith. I asked God to tell me what to do, and quoted the saying, “If you err, err on the side of caution.” –Thinking if I didn’t know for sure, but took a step in faith, he’d show me what the next step was. He answered, “Err on the side of faith”. I questioned this. If we are acting on faith, can we still make mistakes? Yes! Peter did, he lopped off the soldier’s ear because he believed, and acted, without waiting on God. So did Abraham. He didn’t wait on God, he had a child with his wife’s servant.
Well, I can’t tell you what a difference that has made for me. I feel that I am finally free to just embrace the love that the Lord has shown me, and accept the grace that He willingly offers. Free. Me? REALLY!