Why NOW? I’m too busy for this!

GRRR!  Ever had a day that nothing seemed to go as planned?  Today, I woke up to 8 inches of snow, no power, and no water [we’re in the country and have a well with an electric pump-yeah, not the smartest idea- we lose power with almost every snowstorm!].  Great.  Thankfully, my cell phone alarm had been set, so I woke up on time!  But it was still a hectic morning. We drove to town and hit every light along the way. The office was FREEZING.  The coffee seemed to take forever to perk.  The computer was cranky…. OH wait, that was me ;).  Anyway, it was shaping up to be a yucky day, even though I love the snow!

So, as I sit here and type this, I had to take a look at why my morning was so hectic.  You know, the ROOT cause.  I had to admit that I felt inconvenienced.  Why?  Because I am a busy person.  I have a LOT of stuff to do!  I own a business, manage multiple blogs [finally even one for me!], clients, and we have teenagers.

I don’t have time to get involved in all the small issues [where did I leave my purse?] or the bigger ones [how am I supposed to take a shower in the dark with no water?].  I have to make sales to pay my bills.  I have to rebuild my website [and it’s taking FOREVER].  I have advertising materials to create, and administrating to do. Where will I find the time for all this?

Then it sinks in.

I won’t.  I can’t.  There.  I admitted it .  I am unable to meet the demands of my life.  I fail. There is no reasoning around it, no way to get past it.  It stings, but it is the truth.  But the best truth is that God doesn’t expect me to get everything done.  He created me to worship Him, and to be focused on Him.  Why? Because if I am involved in a bunch of busywork, I will miss golden opportunities to share the gospel, or be involved in the lives of others.

With this awareness, I am at peace. I make mistakes.  I am anxious and harsh.  But, I am forgiven, made new, and loved.  The things that irritate me aren’t beyond God’s reach.  No they aren’t happening because God took his eyes off me for a second.  They are happening because God IS watching, and shaping, and prodding me to think eternally, not physically.

Think ETERNALLY.  It will change your life!

The Skeleton In My Closet

Do you have a skeleton in your closet?

I grew up in a very legalistic, very condemning church, that taught that God was waiting for you to sin so that he could punish you.  We were taught that even if we were doing everything right, we’d get to heaven, and find out that we didn’t ask God to forgive us for some sin [even telling a lie when you were a kid], and we would not be able to enter into the kingdom.   It has taken all these years to get over that.  Even this week, as I struggled to make a decision on a direction to take, I was suddenly almost crippled with fear at making the wrong choice, even though both directions would show faith.  I asked God to tell me what to do, and quoted the saying, “If you err, err on the side of caution.” –Thinking if I didn’t know for sure, but took a step in faith, he’d show me what the next step was.  He answered, “Err on the side of faith”.  I questioned this.  If we are acting on faith, can we still make mistakes?  Yes!  Peter did, he lopped off the soldier’s ear because he believed, and acted, without waiting on God.  So did Abraham.  He didn’t wait on God, he had a child with his wife’s servant.

Well, I can’t tell you what a difference that has made for me.   I feel that I am finally free to just embrace the love that the Lord has shown me, and accept the grace that He willingly offers.  Free.  Me?  REALLY!

Welcome!

I am so excited.  This is MY blog!  I am trying something new, at least for ME!  I am going to be blogging about my life and how God is working it out for myself, and my family.  It is putting a lot of pressure on me because I know tech savvy clients may see what I am blogging about, and how it is impacting my personal life.  But, I am hopeful that they will be able to support me in my endeavor to become fully transparent, and fully devoted to living a real Christian life, whatever the consequences.  I expect to be kept accountable, but I ask for your mercy, and grace, because I am not yet perfect.  I will, however, be working through my imperfections, with the world as my witness.  If this sounds like you, and you would like to travel this journey with me, welcome my friend!  I welcome your input and hope we will become good friends!